It takes two people to make a marriage work, I could not do it alone. I don't want to go into the details of the marriage, except to say I was not able to be myself, to be Rachael. I had to constantly mold myself into being the woman he wanted- which evidently was not me.

Now I have to learn to start again. Learn from my mistakes, and let this make me not break me. I need to find Rachael again.

I am not ashamed, because I trusted, and I tried my best, and I am now doing my best to be strong in the face of circumstances I never could have predicted.

"There is no perfection, only life." - Milan Kudera